Problems with my girlfriend's sexual experience.

I'm a 26 year old male living in a country which has a small setback in the way they view things and people like to talk a lot, like a lot. I'm with my girlfriend for around for months now (24), noting that we have been friends for around seven years and best friends for about two years. I have been in one serious relationship before her, for three years, then we broke up and after two years I had my second relationship.

My first girlfriend was my first love, first real experience in this stuff, (not sexually for me, but for her yes). We did not sleep together due to the society we live in. Although we were deeply in love. During this time, my second girlfriend and I were friends, and can always feel like there is something going on even though never in that period something happened with the second. After we broke up, things between us happened to years thereafter.

We used to party all the time together during these two years, every week, but we always went out as a group. Things started to happen early 2016 after some thing sexually happened between us. Then after three months, we got together and talked about our feelings and decided that we wanted to try this.

After several weeks, we started talking about previous experiences and sexual partners. She's not The shy girls by the parties, I knew that, we used to party together, then after a couple of drinks I would find her kissing some guy then doing stuff later on maybe in the car or something (not sex). So I asked him about sexual experiences before and I knew that she had lost her virginity mistake while doing stuff with her last boyfriend. She had sex once with someone I know, after she was drunk. That was the period in early 2016 after something happened between us and we were talking to each other. That was her only time and she regrets it.

She had four boyfriends since she was 16 and two of them cheated on her. The last one was like a year ago and he's one of my friends at work, he did not cheat though. But she always has these partners were sexual stuff happened but there are no feelings nor attachments. The number doesn't bug me, what does do is the fact that she used to put that idea in guys heads that they can get through her easily at a party after a couple of drinks. Also the fact that she had sex when she was drunk was with someone I know, like two weeks before we decided to get together, she was mad at me for not taking the step, and we were not talking to each other at that time, because both of us backed out from the relationship after new years and we fought and stopped talking for a while. And also earlier this year something sexual happened with another guy that she regrets.

She regrets most of the stuff, she's completely honest with me, she told me details, I know I'm not supposed to ask but I had to because I have issues. I believe that trust is the base of a strong relationship. So that's what I told her, she never loved anyone before, we're together for four months now and things are doing great, I love her, I want her, I want to continue my life with her. These thoughts always haunt me and the feeling is just awful. I don't care what people think, if I love her and I want to be with her, I want to continue with this relationship, no matter what others think. But I hate the thought of people might be speaking about her that she used to do this or that. Or guys that she had been with do the same.

We have already talked about it several times, and every time it ends with her crying and saying that she has never felt like this before and she loves me and wants to spend her life with me. She has been completely honest and I respect that, the problem lies with me I know that. The last time we talked about this, I told her that I'm over this, this is your past and I have nothing to do with it, it's made you who you are today and that's the person I love. She got relieved and happy. Me too. But it's kind of sin feedings that she shouldn't have been this easy with the guys and other stuff I don't know.

We are so into each other, I can't get away from her, not even one day. How can I get rid of these feelings? Is it a only a speed bump? Or it will get back in the future?

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