I’m so sorry.t boyfriend left me recently after 9 years. At the least he was having an emotional affair while living with me, but I think it went beyond that. He led me to believe he wanted to work on our rocky relationship and the next day he told me had to go back to his home state due to severe depression. Little by little I put together the pieces that he was obsessing over a woman nearly 9 years younger than him. As soon as he was away from me, he ghosted me, verbally attacked me and blocked me because I simply asked to tell me the truth about what happened. He even put out a no contact report on me when the fling because public. He was the love of my life, he was my best friend. He was at my bedside when I was dying 5 years ago from liver disease. And then he just dropped me like I meant absolutely nothing to him. I tried to contact him after he blocked led me saying I just wanted peace between us even if we couldn’t be friends. I didn’t want us to have to block each other because I still loved him so much... well that and his affair going public is what landed me with a no contact police report. You’d think after 9 years he could have just said something to me instead of making me feel like a criminal. The last thing I said to him was, “this is very difficult for me because you’ve been in my life for 10 years.” And his last words were “not anymore. Bye.” :(

I have no idea why he did this. I have suffered an immense amount of trauma with my health, and this made my PTSD 100 percent worse because he blind sided me. I feel absolutely worthless and physically unattractive since he didn’t sleep with me anymore probably because he wanted his young coworker. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, and I know exactly how you feel. I have no idea how to heal when he treated me like some old garbage he got rid of.