I loved my former AP more than I could possibly explain.

It's been over a month since I let her go, I think about her every day, some days are better than others. She asked me to let her go and move on with her life without me, and I did.

You have no idea how badly I want to reach out to her, I know us parting has hurt her deeply, but I also know what being with me would cost her.

I've spent the entire day trying to think of something I can post on Facebook without raising questions... just to let her know I miss her. But even without posting, I know she knows I do.

I don't reach out because I know it would only hurt her more to hear from me.