PSA: If you are transitioning at 18 or 19, you are not an "older transitioner"

i remember when i thought that.

i wanna die now. i was too deformed by puberty and i'll never get to live a life because i'm a fucking mutant freak who looks like a man no matter what i do now. i'm 35. i've been on hormones for 5-6 years. i have literally never been gendered correctly no matter how much effort i put in. my body is fucking disgusting.

I transitioned because i knew i wasn't a man and couldn't exist being trapped in a man's body anymore - and ironically i'm still trapped in a fucking man's body only now there's no hope of "maybe it'll be ok after i transition" because i transitioned and nothing is better i'm still in the same fucking ugly disgusting worthless body that denies me any chance at any form of life that isn't anything but struggling and poverty and death and isolation and loneliness and pain with absolutely no relief or release ever and no hope at all possible.

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