Previous to dropping acid, I was curious about it for the longest time. Not for it's "trippiness" and to have a good time, but I've heard good things about using it to treat depression and anxiety. And after years and years of therapy, prescription meds, etc.. with no real improvement.. I was willing to try anything and trying LSD didn't sound too bad.
I decided to trip alone since what I really wanted out of it was good introspective. So I put on some music, let the tab dissolve and smoked some weed. For me, the weed helped calm me down during the come up of the LSD and provided a good middle ground between sober and tripping. But when the tripping started, it was good.
The first thing I remember feeling is just happiness. Which, being used to my normal state of grumbly depression, was kind of a shock. I didn't know what to do with it so I just smiled and cried a bit. With the happiness leveling off, I started to notice the colors in my room were getting more vivid and brighter. The trees outside started to look more geometric than natural and I began to see patterns in the carpet. It was awesome. And I don't mean awesome like "These wings are awesome." but awesome in the sense that it was awe inspiring to look at. Everything the world lost its grayness and everything good seemed better.
About two hours into the trip I started watching fractals, still while listening to music. (Music REALLY influenced my mood during this whole experience). The shapes and patterns that rotated in and out of existence were almost too beautiful to comprehend. At one point I was absolutely sure that one of them mimiced the creation of the universe and my mind charged into thought about life and its meaning. After another hour of this I decided to watch something on netflix just to see how watching an actual movie would be. By this point I had lost any sense of what I wanted to do with the LSD originally and just went with whatever came.
Of all things, I chose the documentary Samsara to watch. (highly recommend watching btw.) It started out fun and relaxing. The opening scene was a little much but I pushed forward. But then one of scenes in the flim came on that was designed to make the audience feel very uncomfortable. I pushed through however and made it to the end. After everything was said and done, I felt weird. I couldn't tell what exactly was off, but something was different. I tried to forget about it and went on with my day.
Hour four or five at this point and my girlfriend asks if I want to go to the store with her. Typically I'd say no because of my social anxiety but some part of me wanted to be out with other people.. so I went. Walking around the store I kept thinking about the movie and relating to where I was now. I felt more connected with the world and more at ease with myself. The big thing I remember from the store though were the colors in the laundry detergent isle. Every container I saw was glowing and radiating off one another. At one point I had to lower my head and follow my girlfriend out of the isle because it started to hurt my eyes.
I feel like I'm getting a little rambley so Ill speed things up. When I got back home I just wanted to listen to music and think. I shut my eyes, laid down, and just relaxed. I tried to focus my mind on healing myself and going over how I could improve my depression and overall situation. But I couldn't. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't. I began to get frustrated and uneasy so I decided to stop and just enjoy the rest of my trip. And that's when it hit me. I need to just relax and be. Worrying about things that I couldn't control does no good for anyone. I started to tear up again and spent the rest of the night just enjoying being.
When I sobered up I felt surprisingly good. And that good feeling has persisted. Since I took LSD I've become vegetarian (Samsara can be blamed for that, haha) and have began to practice buddhism to find that inner peace. While the LSD alone didn't fix what I wanted to fix, it truly allowed me to see things from an outside perspective and let that information sink in.
Tl;dr: Tried LSD, watched Samsara, and became a buddhist.