28m. Feel the same way. I feel like to get to know me more is to love me less. I feel like I kinda have valid reasons though. I don't know how to cook, I never moved out, terrified of doing so, live with my dad and brother older than me who also never moved out (after mom passed it didn't feel right to leave dad alone) I mostly play videogames all day, smoke weed every chance I get, social anxiety, depression, self loathing issues, terrible fashion sense, I was the kid in high school and even after high school that just wore band shirts and sweaters lol black clothing ftw

I tried learning guitar for years bur I'm fucking rubbish and have soooo many issues surrounding that subject like not being able to play I front of people without getting really nervous.

Only saving grace might be is I'm a kennal attendant in a vet and I want to be a vet tech. Most of my coworkers and the owner of the vet loves the way I am with dogs (sweet heart is my nickname at work) and I really do love dogs with all my heart, every single one I met

So yeah, I'm a walking hot mess and I don't think I can save myself. Since I was 13 I always had the thought I was gonna die alone and I'm always gonna feel unhappy, and more as time Goes by, I see how I'm right. And usually when people meet hot messes like myself, they see very quick to abandon, so I don't think I trust anyone fully. .

Idk what else to say