This is word for word even down to the months exactly what i'm going through albeit i was in a same sex relationship. At the end of the day if you look at it like this, we tried, we reached a hand out to reconcile and they didn't want it. It's their loss.

I'd give anything to just be friends because my relationship didn't last long enough to warrant deep-seated feelings, i'm the kind of person who can brush over small relationships but that can't be forced and has to come from the other person, something which I should have realized instead of prodding and poking. Maintain no contact and focus on reconnecting with friends/family this Christmas.