PS I do know how to shoot. I'm also pretty fit. But I'm not a larper and I have no (ZERO) military training, (not even paintball) so again, I asked the consulate like a smart person that doesn't want to be a liability, and was told no.

Then I had a bit of delirium and thought maybe I could be smuggled in to help fill sandbags, or do...anything. But again, was convinced not to by my friend (who is connected btw) because that would just cause trouble for Ukraine (illegal entry in war time = guaranteed trouble....) and they already HAVE MORE THAN ENOUGH PEOPLE. Which is hard for me to take. Because I am a person who sees trouble and runs toward it. And I have massive survivor's guilt about this whole thing, because THESE ARE FRIENDS AND FAMILY.

But go off. I wonder if you even held a rifle in your hands. Like I said, getting real edgelord, potato body NEET vibes.