Q4Men: what difference does it make to your life watching porn vs not watching?

Back when I was 18 I took no fap very seriously. I managed to go about four months without watching porn or masturbating.

All it did was make me really horny and frustrated. I was also much more aggressive, which I sometimes channeled in positive ways, like during my job.

I asked more girls out that Summer than I ever did afterwards. It actually became a problem, because I would frequently gaze at good-looking women I saw and talk to them, even though I had nothing to talk to them about.

That Summer I got so frustrated with being turned down that I started digging into exactly what I was doing wrong. Before then, I was hooked on porn and didn't really bother asking women out.

Ultimately, no fap exposed me to the blackpill, and I was so defeated from realizing that my height was going to make me unattractive to women.

A few weeks after the discovery, I had an epiphany. I realized that it was not really porn that made me unattractive to women, I was unattractive in the first place, and porn was actually a blessing as it allowed me to cope with the fact that I likely won't have a sex life.

Once I made that realization, I got back to my porn addiction and haven't left since.

I don't want to be exposed to the frustration and desperation that I had to find a woman again. I would much rather numb the pain through watching porn and fapping.

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