That is very true. The attention seekers of other kinds is why I am trying to make people more aware of this stuff. I personally have severe depression. Even with the dosage I am on I have days where I can literally not get out of bed. I go through fits of self hate and have thought about ending it.

In no part of any of this have I really thought that I want the public to know about it, but you know what, screw that, this post probably won't get seen by most people anyway.

I don't believe a single one of these fucking posts. A person depressed to the point of suicide is not publicly telling everyone they want to die. They are definitely not coming back a couple hours after a death threat for the sole purpose of making a reddit account and joking with people again.

I did everything I could to make it seem like nothing was wrong. My suicidal thoughts scared me, and I told only the people I trusted most about it. When I made my one and only attempt that ended in me getting help I just happened to see some cable on the road, the kind coated in rubber. I went from smiling and telling my friends I would see them later to taking that cable and walking off in the woods to hang myself. Fortunately I did it the slow way instead of the fast way or I would not be here. As it is a couple people saw me grab the cable and walk into the woods and decided to follow me to make sure I was okay, one of them managed to get me down. I only have a couple almost unnoticeable scars on my neck from where it gave me rubber burn.

I was thinking of killing myself, seriously thinking of it for months and I told no one. Even if I had place full of people I considered friends I would have not left a note that day. I would have done it exactly the same.

Suicide is not a public affair. It is something you do yourself, for yourself. It is selfish, but it is not the kind of petty I have seen in those posts. It took me a week after that of one on one time with a very close friend before I could even think of talking to other people. I sure as hell wasn't joking and chatting in any sort of public place a few hours later.

These posts are a fucking attention grab that people are dumb enough to help from a knee jerk reaction, they give the attention cause they have been taught that is right, and these people soak it up. The whole thing makes me fucking sick.