I have CPTSD and took them for the first time last night. 2 weeks prior I stuck to a strong meditation routine and made sure I was eating and sleeping. I also cleaned and decorated my apartment a bit so when it came time to trip that effort in itself put me in a better headspace.

While I was coming up I laid on the couch under a blanket and had my hand on my heart and focused on my breath. I just kept telling myself this is safe and I feel safe and I’m going to have a happy experience. I ended up staying on the couch and just watching the patterns on my ceiling morph into rainbow images of women holding children while listening to music. It was really beautiful and made the whole trip feel warm and cozy.

As I am writing now my head feels clear and I can’t remember the last time it felt like that. I had a lot of revelations regarding myself and connection.