This happened to me! I kept dating people I didn't have a spark with just because I wanted a boyfriend and it was terrible.

I can't do dating apps or even just go on one date with someone and know if I'm attracted to them. I have to know them long term. I can't do one night stands. I don't see strangers and think I want to do sexual things with that person. The most I can think towards a stranger is that they look aesthetically pleasing, but I never imagine having sex with them in my head like most people do. I played spin the bottle once and almost vomited kissing someone I didn't know lol. The internet calls it Demi-sexual.

I'm fine being single. I even prefer it most of the time. I'm dating someone (new relationship) right now who I've been close friends with for about 18 years now. And my last ex I knew for 10 years before we started dating.

I don't try to be like this? So I guess it really is a sexuality. I need to get to know someone's whole personality before I have the possibility of getting a crush on them. I need to see them when they're sad, and mad, and happy, and how they deal with things, and how they treat others. My bfs personality has kind of been turning me off lately lol but he's going through a lot right now.

I'm just saying your sexuality could be somewhere on the asexuality spectrum. It could also be caused by trauma, if you find yourself going back and forth between hypersexual and sexually repulsed a lot. Or you could be dealing with depression, that can also supress those types of feelings. Certain medications like antidepressants can do that as well. Even hormone/thyroid issues. It's not always because of trauma though