[QUESTION] How is your mental health?

I hate myself and the urge to punish myself is strong. I hate having to hide how I really feel. July has been the most interesting month of screenwriting in my life. I got my first screenlay request, made my first connection, and me and a close friend just got one of our screenplays produced. I decided to pitch my script to another studio where the director liked my past works I sent her.

To most people they'd be overjoyedbut I still hate myself. And if this connection does go well a part of me wants to mess it up or have them waiting for the full screenlay if they do like it.

I feel like no matter how much success I have I'm always going to hate myself.

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