Not trying to avoid floating away, nor control my trips.

What i mean is... i left my body to a large degree, i was spaced out and felt lost or vacant for the better part of 4 days.

I’ve disassociated before due to DV (for months & years in that survival mode) and other events in my life have spun me out where i was not “here”, i was not present in my body, i was on autopilot.

I feel like i should be able to be able to journey without “not coming back” and be present after it’s over.

When I md i feel very present.

I actually feel it was a bad trip then cuz of where i went to but i fully understand the path I’m on and it’s purpose to cleanse out the past and understand other experiences.

I was fine after San Pedro.