I never have. Likely due to being autistic and mentally ill. I also simply have an apathy for social relationships, it doesn't bother me to not have them

I understand and try to relate.

I don't feel useful, but I don't feel any need or desire to be useful.

I don't think its true. Ofc you have the desire. Whenever you do something that helps others you are useful to them. You answered my questions so you are useful to me (and i thank you for that).

It isn't, but if work involves other humans near me (i.e. 99% of jobs) I definitely cannot work as that due to being autistic and antisocial, even if you get rid of my other mental illnesses. And to get a non-wageslave job requires a lot of time, effort and luck.

Do you have any hobbies? You could focus on then. Can you cooperate with other people or do get panic attacks?

I didn't ask to be born, so I owe society nothing. I was forced into society with no good way out, so society owes me everything. If society legalises euthanasia, then I'd have two options: give back to society (if capable) or be euthanised. I'd choose euthanasia. But I'm too much of a coward to manually and personally kill myself.

If you own society nothing then society owns nothing to you too. Don't you think?

You didn't forced in society, you can always try to live self sufficient in nature. Many people do it. Now you re like : "I own society nothing but please give me my Neetbux". It doesn't make sense.

I don't think euthanasia will be legalised. Everyone i know who tried to suicide and lived, now regret the attempt.

I think that if you are suicidal, you are fucking free. You can go wageslave for 1 buck a day :p What's there to lose? Nothing matters anymore.

To put it as simply as possible, I hate society because society has never given me a reason to like it.

This society doesn't give me a reason to like it too. But society constantly changes. So try to focus on that.