Introspective and external awareness are still not working 100% of the time but when they are they seem to merge into one. And suddenly the distinction between what's 'me', thoughts, body sensations, and what's 'not me', the external world, seems a bit weaker.

Reading Beyond Mindfulness in Plain English by Henepola Gunaratana I had a 'woah' moment about how everyone is just striving for happiness and ill will is always caused by suffering. I've kinda struggled and still do struggle with negative feelings about some people(people whose actions/words caused pain to me or other beings) but now I know I don't need to. Since reading the chapter about metta I've been doing it every day.