I really don't know what to do with myself or work towards in a worldly sense. When I was 17 my solution to this question was to get a scalable career as to increase my salary and savings as to build my worldly freedom to keep the door open for when I knew what to do. As a product of this decision I basically know exactly how the next 20 years of my life are going to play out if I stick to it. I will work 40+ hours a week and meditate in my free time if I want Financial Independence quickly along with progression in the Dharma.

Reading autobiographies I envy all the twists and turns and romanticism of their life. I'm turning 21 in a few months and it kills me how on-rails my future looks.

The Dharma is consuming all of my free time. I have interests and hobbies but they feel so empty and a waste of time in comparison. Everything just turns into meditation time.