You are not wrong about that last bit. So you have chosen death, for that is the destiny of pacifism in conflict with militarism.

It is the way of things, I suppose.

The Meek shall inherit the land—said the Wolf. And you think, Wolves kill, and I don't want to be a Wolf, which means I shan't kill.

But the Meek are misled. What makes the Wolf a Wolf, is their love of killing, their embrace of it as a lifestyle, forever seeking battle, forever seeking prey. The Meek are taught to revile violence, to fear imagining what it must be like to be a Wolf--lest they stray from the path and become a Wolf themselves!

You say your violence will benefit rich white men. Will you not consider who your pacifism will benfit?