I hope that my brother get a job soon because it is getting kinda heavy for me having to pay for a lot of things, this month alone I have given RM700.

Dont even feel like seeing my bank account anymore at this point,because too much withrawal. Nanti, I will feel like what is the point of working if... everything just habis. Masuk RM600, last sekali really saved RM150 je. I have some money I have saved up for my sister from my early days of working, but I dont want to use that money to get her a new laptop. Was planning to get her with my salary this month, but I'm worried family at home would require more help. Hmm, with how everything is right now, chances is that I gotta give her my old laptop for the time being. Aiya, that sucks. I wish I can do better than that. I'm freaking lame onee san. Sakitnya, when you are hurting your own pride. Adeh.

He has to step up before everything crumbles onto me and I dunno how to function as an adult anymore. If this continues, nak berhenti kerja pun rasa bersalah. I cared for others way too much. Cries in cucur tepung I bought at the park. At least the cucur is delicious. :')