that isn't why she left though, i mean i know you have to retroactively make up things about my life to win an internet argument, but she actually left due to several people close to her dying, having a complete mental break down and going insane. i really don't want to get into that because it's kinda fucked up and not something i want to bring into a petty slinging match on the internet, cause it's messed up and i feel really bad for her.

but before that happened, i was still just kinda bored with once a week sex, especially since we would fuck way more in the first few years. once i realised once a week was literally the norm (this was my first relationship too) for a relationship that long, i kind of got disillusioned on them.

if you want me to be truthful though, if she never went insane from that trauma i would probably still be with her, putting up with weekly sex. but since i'm single now, i just kind feel hesitant, both to submit to life long sex of low frequency as that is normal, and to get attached to another human being in general.

that's more than i wanted to reveal and i'm probably gonna delete all my post in this argument.