A crush I had back in secondary school. We went different ways after O's but me being indignant about parting ways at that point, I continued chasing and keeping up in J1.

After a few nasty exchanges, I convinced myself to move on and concentrate on my studies. My grades were ridiculous in J1 btw, I'm not sure how I even promoted. Met other people along the way and am thankful for them in many ways, slowly grew closer to some of them and we tanked A's together.

Started working PT after A's to pass time y'know and somehow the crush from 1-2 years back suddenly appeared in my life. It was like she never left. Dug deeper holes for myself when I found out she's attached after a few catchup sessions, but oh well I've moved on (or so I thought) so mehh I was happy for her too.

Intermittent texts follows and soon I've moved on. Many months later she appears again when I was barely surviving in some forsaken island. I think it was then when I was too weak and started letting her break my walls again.

Welp but now my heart's broken and idek we aren't ever meant to be together.