Right now nothing, I'm thinking about partially redoing my high school. I didn't pass for every school subject the last year, so the idea is that I redo those. Then I receive my diploma for that grade. It's a little hard to explain in english.

After I failed high school I tried a more career focused education. In english, I think it's about the same as system administrator, except a lower level. It was a home study, focused on adults with a job. Class was only one day a month. Since I was unemployed at the time, and I could do it at home, I really thought I could do it. I figured I had time enough, and that most of the learning would be done through internship.

But boy, was that some bullshit. For every month we had to read some material to prepare for monthly class. For the first class we had only two weeks. We had to read two books which were between 100-200 pages, plus a boat load of exercises. How do you do that, when on a bad day, you can't even read 10 pages? Even my classmates had trouble finishing that. And that is the "easy" education, in english it's just above high school I think. I can't even imagine how bad higher education must be.

I just checked my books to see how thick they actually were. In it I found a note from my mother which said: "Come on /u/HuubKe161, a little bit everyday!" I quit after a few months. I just feel so guilty man. Everybody was convinced that I was going to make it this time.

I already lost more than 2000 euro to it, and the total price was about 3300. I'm not sure if they'll also claim the last 1000, even though I quit at the start. And it was not like I couldn't grasp the study material, I was really beginning to understand it. But I just can't keep up with that. I guess it's more important that we do everything at breakneck speed, than actually doing it properly.

So what, do I just have to resort to working my current basic job, and whining on the internet? As I'm doing now?