Probably good that I'm so late to this thread - my rant really shows how fortunate I am that I don't have worse.

I am hurting over GIII leaving. I want to be able to talk to a friend, to tell them every detail of why I miss her, to get it all out in the open. But I've already burdened everyone more than enough with my drama, it feels like time to carry this myself.

I love this woman. I say this in the sense that I truly want what's best for her. I have already compromised so much of what I wanted out of this to give her what she needed. And now I need to finally let my feelings for her go and move on with my life.

It's just hard. Aside from the deeper things I wanted that couldn't happen because they weren't what she needed (dating, then an invested friendship), I miss being able to call her up to go to the batting cages. I miss seeing her at softball every Sunday, me fielding the ball from the pitcher's spot and throwing to her at first. I miss telling her it was raining over on my side of town, or her telling me the same. I miss rooting for the Rangers and Cowboys together. I will miss going to 51s games with her. I miss talking with her about just about anything. I miss that exciting two weeks where I thought something might happen between us, how we once went to lunch and stayed for seven hours. I miss going to shows together. I miss having a friend here that I could share a small piece of my life with.

I have found a few new friends here, including one who will be a great friend moving forward. I need to move on and finally let GIII go in my heart. I wish so hard that I hadn't started trying literally days before she found out she would leave the country. I wish that we could have had something romantic. I wish that I could have let that go sooner and been the friend she needed me to be sooner. I wish that she were still here.