3. I raped my wife before it was considered legally a crime, it has weighed on my s...

I raped my wife before it was considered legally a crime, it has weighed on my soul for many years.

That's heavy dude.

Makes me want to make my own confession.

When I was 20 and my girlfriend was 19, we were madly in love. Hot, young love. Crazy love. Somehow we got it into our head that we wanted a baby.

So, we started fucking like rabbits, with no protection. This, at a time when I didn't have a good job, she had never had a job, she didn't even have a driver's license or a GED. We were so not prepared.

But, we were crazy in love. And she got pregnant.

About two months into her pregnancy, she realized what a terrible idea it was. And she wanted an abortion. She wanted to abort my baby. Now I'm probably choice, a woman's body is her temple, her rules. But... That was my baby. And I was devastated. I fell into a black pit of despair. I threatened to kill myself.

I threatened to kill myself, to convince her to have a baby that she couldn't take care of.

She broke up with me, but she did have the baby. It was miserable for her. She didn't want to be a mom. We broke up before he was born, and she had to do it alone. He was a terrible baby, and he screamed all the time. It seemed like he never slept. And here was this young 19 year old girl with no life experience, no support system, raising this hellian child.

My dad left when I was 3, and my mom raised me pretty much alone. That's a huge deal for me, and I never wanted my son to grow up like that. So, I fought like hell to won her back. I supported her financially, I helped her get her GED, and I taught her how to drive. Eventually we got back together. We now have 2 kids. She's happy now, and she's forgiven me for all this.

You want to know the horrible part?

I'm gay. I've been fighting it all my life, but now I know it and can't fight it anymore. But I can never leave her, because I did this to her.

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