Firstly, I am so sorry you've experienced this. That sounds absolutely awful. Unfortunately I am not able to offer much advice, only my experience. I have never been able to explain it either, but it was not violent. I felt the figure 'enter' me. Pretty disturbing when I think about it now, but it is something I have never been able to understand. I was also - or I thought I was - awake, during this. I was just trying to sleep. I kind of put it in a box of "things that happened to me that I don't understand, so I'll pretend it didn't happen or I imagined it".

If this assault is still occurring, would you be open to trying different things to protect yourself and your home from this? I would start off smaller and begin escalating as you feel necessary. Maybe start with a full house cleanse with a white sage smudge stick and use black tourmaline to grid your home. I don't know if you would need more extreme measures or if that would be even helpful as this is pretty unknown territory for me.

However, I would definitely suggest looking into different therapies to help. I've been told that Shaman's do great work with healing trauma. Maybe it's even possible to get more traditional therapy too for it. If you're concerned about being misdiagnosed and aren't able to find a therapist that will acknowledge your story to be legitimate, you could probably leave out the part that it occurred during SP and treat it as a real event or nightmare to them - because I think even if this was a nightmare it's still legitimate and traumatising.

I think its also important to remember that nobody knows your experience except for you. Don't let anyone tell you what it was or wasn't. I think there are a lot of things that we don't understand in this world, primarily due to social conditioning growing up.

I hope you're doing okay <3