Re-instate Mental Health Commission, say Greens, calling on Government to launch nationwide inquiry into mental heath services

I have Bipolar disorder, agoraphobia and social anxiety that is sometimes mild, usually prevents me from interacting with anyone and sometimes extreme enough to stop me from leaving the house.

I have been seeing a psychiatrist as well as a social worker and psychologist for almost three years since I had my first psychotic episode and i've had two doctors in this time. The first one tried to push me into working after nine months but luckily she was foreign and decided to move so I got a new doctor who has written me medical certificates (for WINZ) since then but has recently said things like "I am going against my professional judgement granting you this medical certificate" because he thinks that because I am a bit more talkative now I am fit for work. I actually had a part time job from November 2015 to March 2016 but I couldn't handle it and had to make up lies to tell my employer why I needed to reduce my hours (I was a casual so I just said I had been offered a full time job and could only work 1 day a week). Eventually I resigned. I haven't told my psychiatrist I left that job mainly because I feel a bit ashamed that I couldn't handle it, and also because I don't want to be referred to a psychologist for meetings every 2 weeks doing stupid "thought diaries" about anxiety and "what causes me to feel socially anxious" because honestly I can't pinpoint any underlying thoughts, I just feel extremely uncomfortable around people.

Anyway instead of getting a medical certificate from my psychiatrist last month, I went to my local family GP who was even worse and said he would only write me one and then expect me to look for full time work in August.

So now I have the option to either relinquish my benefit and survive on nothing, or "doctor" shop for someone who will listen to what I'm saying and not judge me.

Maybe because I am so shy I can't explain it well enough in person. But to put it in perspective, I don't hang out with friends (once every 6 months i'll see someone), I haven't stepped foot in a club in 3 years, been overseas, had sex, entered a relationship, and only in the last 6 months have I even logged into social media because I was even scared at the thought of receiving messages from people wanting to "catch up" (I used to be a very social person so it's kind of jarring for people who used to know me to see me these days so quiet and anxious, which is why I avoid old friends). So in my opinion if I can't enjoy myself socially, then I shouldn't have to be work tested either. I would rather have no money than be forced to work at this point, and if I can't find a doctor who can handle that I may as well move back to Australia where there aren't any support networks for me. At least the weather is nicer.

Also, it would be nice if the "sickness benefit" / supported living payment were increased. Sickness has gone up from $199 to $210 in the last 11 years which is nothing.

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