God I hadn't even considered what gets written that we don't see.

As if it's not hard enough to move on from a toxic relationship, I do know that mine is forever enshrined in my medical records from the time my endocrinologist asked more questions about my ex than my body. He literally said "He's the culprit, not your thyroid." As I was having heart palpitations and hot flashes. Sure enough my symptoms got a lot fucking worse, and I saw after graphing my own labs that my levels were trending hyper! He told me that when my TSH was slightly below 1 and it just kept declining but nooo I was just being hysterical when I said I think need a lower dose...

My new endo let me stop meds altogether because after years of being overmedicated I felt like I was dying. I was honestly afraid of thyrotoxicosis, but didn't want to bash my old doctor to him or seem like a "problem patient" so I just gave him all my documents and hoped he would know what's best. Unfortunately after leaving with just a slightly reduced prescription I realized he also wasn't paying attention to my history, just how I appeared that day (coming from my office job) and didn't seem to want to interfere much with my current treatment, when that was the whole reason I switched! I went back 3 weeks later to reiterate how bad I was feeling and question why we should give my already overstimulated thyroid 75mcg of stimulant. I ended up crying so I'm sure that's in there and working against me. He did at least listen then, though, and acknowledged that maybe they started medicating me when I was subclinical. Still on the fence about him lol.