So with all of that, as I said in another thread, if I could guarantee getting down from an O cup(on a normal day, on days like this, who knows what size they really are) to a JJ/K, I could deal. But I know I am too scared to take that step.

It's really, really normal to be scared of surgery. There are always risks as you know, size can't be guaranteed and I daresay that with your starting size a reduction would be more challenging. I say this with great sympathy for you--I would say empathy, but though I'm large-busted, there's a fair difference between a guesstimated 38O UK and my 34H UK.

When I read your posts, I admire your spirit but I feel actual worry and fear for how you, an internet stranger, can physically bear the weight of breasts your size. Especially since, if I'm remembering correctly, you are very petite in height.

I suspect it is more fear that is keeping you from a surgeon than anything else, and that I can surely empathize with. I'm pretty sure I'd have gotten a reduction myself many years ago if it weren't for my deep fear of surgery. Now, due to other health reasons I'm not a candidate for the surgery.

I would strongly encourage you to at least go for a consult or three to see what some well-qualified plastic surgeons have to say. Maybe before that, join the website Realself and get familiarized with a lot of actual cases of reduction, view photos, and see the questions asked. You've probably checked out r/Reduction many a time, I'd imagine. You probably know that most surgeons aren't all that familiar with actual bra sizes beyond DD on whatever band size. So you'd have to be prepared with photos, example bras and to talk in terms of grams removed rather than cup sizes.