I realised I made many faulty decisions because of my CPTSD

Same. For me, it's also pretty hard to untangle the consent around it. Now that I am more aware of my trauma and look back at the situation I can see that I wanted it as a desperate way to fill an emptiness and others took advantage of that. Is that really consent? Either way you decide, you open a whole new can of worms.

I also had to deal with sl*t shaming too when I talked about some of it at the time and it's taken a while to find a balance in my head between what I did isn't wrong but it was wrong for me.

Honestly, cutting contact with everyone and just never mentioning it ever to anyone new has helped me the most. It's harder to feel shame over something that might as well not have happened.

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