The idea of God makes much more sense when you stop viewing "him" like some caricature old bearded man sitting on a cloud. That's really changed my perspective, anyway. I still don't know exactly what or who God is, and I'm not sure it's real at all, but I'm open and hopeful. At the end of the day none of us will be able to prove anything either way, so I refuse to waste a second giving credence to a belief system that has brought me nothing but heartache. I choose positivity, which, for me, is God-whatever that might happen to look like. I don't care if you think that makes me look childish, I take great comfort in knowing there's some "imaginary friend" in the sky that knows me and understands me. I don't want to feel alone in my thoughts and pain.