:[ oh no I feel attacked.

My father was rather emotionally and physically abusive to me when I was a kid, and my sister is currently treating me the same way he did. I was also sexually abused by an older girl when I was a kid

I tend to develop for both guys and girls who are very sweet towards me, and they were always my friend first. I rarely ask anyone out though (makes me really anxious) so I usually just pine away until I get over it.

Reminds me of when I has feelings for a guy friend of mine. I finally pushed myself to admit my feelings, but he kindly rejected me. We were flirtatious towards eachother so it left me very conflicted, since I didn't want to be flirty friends with him out of fear of making him uncomfortable. I got over him eventually and things are back to normal

But I'm honestly so afraid of making people uncomfortable or freaked out because of my feelings. I think I developed weird intimacy issues now because of what happened when I was a kid, so I automatically feel like anyone who is nice or even remotely flirtatious likes me.

I don't know what to do, since I'm seriously afraid of turning out like a nice girl. I don't want to be one but I don't know how to make myself stop liking people that much when they're nice to me. Does anyone have any advice on that?