You don’t owe anyone anything, not even your parent. “I love him since he’s my parent”, love doesn’t come from relation, it comes from actions and devotion and words, trust me when I say that love doesn’t come from relation, not at all. If the person doesn’t treat you right then there’s no point in being around them, even if they’re related by blood.

You don’t owe it to him to show how much he could’ve lost if you die or move away or whatever. It’s not your responsibility to, some people won’t ever realize, that’s a possibility, and you can’t beat yourself up over it, because at the end of the day you can’t control what they think and how they feel. It’s up to them to do, not you.

And things can get better, they really can. Hope and work can make a lot of thing work.

Remember you didn’t deserve to be treated like this by your father, never has, never will deserve it. You deserve love and care and all the good in life