Thank you for all the comments! This is such an interesting thing, MD. I got clean in 91, have stayed clean, and stopped going to meetings in 08. Stopping the meetings really helped me career and marriage wise. I pop in on a meeting every couple years to be sure I'm not completely absent. I don't advise everyone do that. That works for me. But if your in for years, and it's affecting your marriage and job and your tired of being sucked into the drama of very very sick people, then it might be.
I don't even know where to start on MD. I tripped balls a couple times back in the 70's in an area where the pure stuff could be found. Really expanded my mind and spirit and am always grateful I was able to do that as a kid. Later on I experimented with shrooms several times and they did nothing to me. Even took amounts friends thought I was crazy to take, and nothing. I'm guessing I altered my brain doing high doses of pure A earlier and psilocybin doesn't work now? IDK. Maybe it's been so long shrooms would work now.
I have no idea where to get A. And I don't want bunk, only pure. I don't want to deal with the law either. Drug wars piss me off so much. Rational logical productive citizens should be able to do what they want without greedy nannies wanting to put people in timeout for years. Don't even get me started as one of the cofounders of Reddit killed himself because of the nanny state.
But anyway, I think I need to MD. I have been suffering with deep depression for years. I work out and am in great shape. I have a job that's top of the food chain intellectually, and I need to keep my edge with creativity and energy. I drink a sugar free monster every day to give me that edge (I hear you laughing), but it doesn't help much with creativity, just energy.
I'm glad studies are being done overseas. Sad they can't be done in the U.S.. OH, I wanted to mention that SRI's and other pharma pills don't work for me either. I don't think I have a serotonin problem. In addition, I've done all the therapy with sponsors, steps, and therapists too. I'm good in that area.
I wish I knew somebody personally that does it. I'm guessing that's how the majority of people doing it get into it. I'm fluent in tech and can but don't and won't navigate the DW. I know too much about tech and how it works and can't afford the consequences.
Thanks again for the posts. Even if I don't get to MD, I'll always research it, and who knows, maybe it will be dropped onto my lap some sunny day. Oddly I feel just tracking with the trend helps me in a sympathetic way. Perhaps it is placebo, but I'll take it.