Reddit, what are you passionate about? How did you discover that passion?

I feel the same way as you do. I am not passionate about anything really and I don't understand how people find things that they truly enjoy, especially when it is something I find so boring.

I am 20 and I just finished the first semester of my second year of college. I still haven't declared my major as of right now. I will be declaring Computer Science shortly, but I picked this because I felt like I was being backed into a corner. I received an email from my university that basically told me that I needed to declare a major or a hold would be placed on my account (I wouldn't be able to register for future classes). Besides, I am running out of general ed classes to take that are universal. I am at the point where I need to choose a specific path with specific classes.

None of the majors really interest me at all. I initially was going to pursue Business because it seemed like a major that you could do many things with after graduation. Taking different business classes like Economics (Micro and Macro) and Accounting showed me how much I hated the different subjects related to Business. I also took classes in Economics and Marketing in high school and I hated those too. I decided to choose Computer Science because videogames are one of my only real hobbies so I figured that was close enough. I don't really know anything about Computer Science or what it will entail (besides a lot of math, which I also hate). I feel like other people in my major will have already had exposure to the field through coding that they do on their own leisure. For me, I think Computer Science is more of the thing I hate/find boring the least, rather than find actually intriguing.

Even in my leisure, I am not really passionate about anything. I could say I used to be passionate about gaming and Magic: The Gathering, but that is no longer the case. I still play videogames quite a bit, but not nearly as much as I used to. My anger problems, friends slowly shifting away in favor of their own passions after high school, and just being annoyed by the gaming community in general has left me with a somewhat passive view on gaming. I just use it to pass time nowadays rather than as a true passion.

As for MTG, I have given up on that entirely. Anger problems were the main cause, but it was also too expensive, and again, the community in general was less than desirable.

Nowadays, I just try to spend my time to make the day go by. Watching TV, surfing the Internet, playing games, and masturbating are practically all I do. While they all bring me some enjoyment, at the end of the day, I just want to get through the day and go to sleep again.

One thing that has left me disheartened is the fact that even things I was passionate about, I wasn't very good at. I had been playing MTG for about seven years, and I only had a handful of first place finishes to my name, and these were all at local Friday night casual tournaments. Whenever I built decks, I did bad. The only time I was remotely successful was when I just copied the best decks at the time. Even when I did good, I felt it was all purely luck. When it comes to gaming, it was the same thing. I put in so much time, but there were always people that were better than me.

The point is, if I can't even get good at things I invest years of time into and I am also passionate about, what is the point of even trying? It seems that whatever it may be, for most people, their skills just plateau eventually and you are left in the middle of the pack while the successful ones are those at the front who naturally can break the plateau and keep going. It is very disheartening to even bother when this is simply the truth of the situation we find ourselves in.

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