Life in general.

My parents, me and my brother are about to move. Thing is, my dad is an alcoholic. My mother wanted to divorce and then move out with my brother and me.

Dad obviously somehow turned her head around with "I will stop drinking!" and it worked. For about 2 weeks until my parents knew where we will move to. Since the papers have been signed, my dad started drinking again. Going from a 2 six-packs over the weekend to 11 beers a day during the week.

I am about to finish my training and get a decently paying job. I am in my mid 20s. My parents move with the thought that my brother and me will live with them for a few years still.

Here comes the thing I struggle with. My mum isn't a saint either. She can't manage money well. She has debts at several shops including Amazon...where she created an account in my name. So, both my parents are messes and me and my brother are in the middle of it. I don't know what to do anymore. I told my dad I will see to it that he will get a six-pack for a whole week and that's it. I know, alcoholics don't work like that but I try to control the damage here since my mother is always talking about how she will do this and that and then she doesn't do jack shit.

My dad's response was "Fuck you" and now I once again start to think about my near future. I highly doubt I can live under those conditions but I also know that if I move out on my own, my brother will suffer this shit alone. Oh, did I mention my parents don't even have enough money to pay rent at the beginning of a month?

I have been depressed for the past 6 years, every day that passes, I think more and more about just ending my life in some way. I am at a point where every choice I could make ends up being a shitty one.