I can understand how you felt. I was born with microtia (my ears did not develop right and I'm practically deaf on the right side), it didn't help that I was also gay, fat and living in almost rural mexico.

I got teased a lot and looking back I had signs of depression since I was 12. Even my then friends stopped hanging with me and started bullying me when we hit puberty, because nobody would like to be seen with the fat gay kid with fucked up ears. I always got weird looks in public. They are not horribly deformed, but they are noticeable.

I was alone most of the time in middle school and only had like three "friends" who would only hang with me because they didn't have friends either, but they would tell me the most awful shit when my other classmates would start to tease me. I don't know why I took all that.

In high school I was tired of it so I did a 180 twist. I lost all the weight and decided that if I was finally "good enough" I wouldn't have to take shit from anyone else. I wasn't fat anymore and being homophobic could potentially get you an F in english (my teacher was gay) so these fuckers started teasing me only by my ears. And it was so frustrating because I did everything I could to look nice, be thin, tall, have good skin, stylish clothes, a great hairstyle but I could just not change my ears.

I fell into an even bigger depression, I grew my hair so I could cover my ears and started college in another state. It was bittersweet because I finally had a sense of normalcy but I felt like I was proving those assholes they were right and betraying myself. And then there's always some person with good intentions who's telling me to cut my hair (I made friends here in college, but they don't know because I always wear my hair down or use beanies)

It really sucks and I have even considered suicide a few times to be honest.