Reddit, what's the cruelest thing you ever did to an ex? Did they deserve it?

Jesus I don't know where to start.

M=This was an ex from high school I ot back with while out of state.Got out of the military and went back home and stayed drunk for months. Didn't fuck anyone else but made a fetlife account and acted ignorant. Emotionally abusive,left to go to Florida at the last minute. Strung her along during our long distance nonsense. Realized I hated long distance with her because of fighting that I caused most of the time. Broke it off.

A=Met him when I was hungover. I fell really really fucking hard for him. Everyone told us we were adorable, my friends told me not to fuck it up. Started to get my shit right,slowed down on drinking until one night I got too drunk and wrecked his car. Nothing major luckily. We got over it. Worst thing I did. Ended up leaving me because he said he couldn't handle the distance when he would be deployed and said he'd end up cheating on me. No he hates the fuck out of me because of something a family member lied about and well, I guess that's karma for the shit I did before him. It's been months and I'm not really over it or him.

I messaged M on tumblr months ago telling her I understand what it feels like to be on the other side and that I hoped she's doing well. She never said anything,didn't expect or need her to. I really just wanted to apologize and mean it that time.

As for A,well. I don't know. Part if me hope that whenever he decides to do his time in the military he gets a hold of me and we can do what we talked about. The other half of me wants to hit him in the forehead for not talking to me about the shit that was going on and just giving up.

Not ready to start dating,Idk when I will be but as far as I'm concerned,I'm not good enough for a relationship yet. I'm not happy with myself and won't be for a long time. I really hope that both of them are happy doing whatever silt is they're doing right now and I'm almost happy about not being involved with them so they can improve and live good lives without me holding them back.

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