My mom got drunk and posted an over the top ridiculously rude and mean rant on an unrelated facebook post on my wall. She’s always at least pretended to like me but now I guess she’s done doing even that. At least she’s got one out of three children that she doesn’t consider an annoyance or disappointment.

The thing that sucks is that I moved across the country back to my home state because my family and friends were constantly telling me how much they missed me. I’ve been here just over a year and I’ve had one friend visit, my sister lives an hour away and I’ve seen her maybe 5 times, and my mom came to stay once but she spent the entire visit smoking outside and talking the phone. I think we spent 2-3 hours together in two days. No other family or friends have come to visit, or given me a time to visit when asked multiple times.

It sucks because we sold our house and used most of our savings to get here and I think I feel more alone than I did before. Every day I regret it more. If it wasn’t for my husband I just wouldn’t stay on this planet anymore.