Welp throwaway/rant
When I finished high school I took an inbetweener year to join the military. Meanwhile I was working in a carwash. That son of a bitch stole tip and because I was a foolish 17 year old I did seem to notice that the fucking peep in my ears might be trouble. Lo and Behold fucking tinnitus just great. No let's not provide earing protection. He was a fucking cunt too. Ohh summertime hot as fuck 10 houre shift no break. Costumers were there before I even stepped foot in that fucking place. We had a temp disabled guy come in for his internship. Now I don't want to bash this guy. He was a hard worker and a nice dude. BUTT FOR FUCK SAKE. I was given no information on his disability and what he could and could not do. I just saw that he had a minor mental (not the sharpest bloke butt very nice) and his limbs were not 100% straight. Great I never trained a regular now I need to train a person with a disablity. Also great he came on days were it was bussy as fuck so I could not really pay attention to his work. It was that I told the owner that I gave his share of the tip because I don't think otherwise he would have got it. After two weeks I also gave him my tip becuase the piece of shit owner would take it anyway.
Only positive thing of that job is that I learned what hard work was and not giving up. Because believe me I wanted to give up when it was bussy with no end no break and the fucking place was a sauna. Also started to take less shit from costumers.
So I do the trial for infantery 3 days. Did not pass too nervous ehh fair point butt I managed to get through the physical part proud as fuck. So yeah the MP's trial. This was a few months later and wayy diferent. Trials were more mental than physical. I pass. FUCK YEAH. I was still nervous butt managed to learn myself some things to lessen it. Pschycological test. Now this person will try to disect you ass much ass possible with words. Pass yes. Medical comes along. Hearing test want to stand up and leave. Could you please remain seated fuck. Extra test. Well look who did not pass his hearing because of tinnitus.
Ohhh butt shit gets better. Guess whos home situation becomes unstable as fuck. YAY divorce. Thank god we got another cat and that sonofabitch is the best cat ever. Everytime shit gets unstable I find the little bugger (well big biggest cat I ever seen) I search for him and cuddle up. He is a big goofball. Helped me through rough times. Atleast my partents don't hate them anymore. Butt yeah now I am at college because what the fuck am I gonne do else. And hope that a degree can slip me past the hearing requirement. Will try to join the reserves in a little while when I can try to join again because you can't join for a year after a medical failure.
My biggest fear right now is that I won't be able to join due to you guess it the mofo tinnitus. I don't want to rot away becoming some policy maker deskworker. Not being able to become a police officer firefighter or military job would fucking suck. Really the tinnitus does not even bother me. It is the fucking options it might take away that scare the living shit out of me.
College is pretty boring so yeah that also.
Phew thank god this ain't facebook otherwise I could never throw such a rant.
TL;DR Fuck tinnitus and fuck my boss who I really really hate.