My girlfriend at the time had went away on a church group vacation in Canada. When she came back she was being strange and after awhile things were not working out. She seemed like she lost interest which in turn I kind of did too but wanted to work things out of course. After about a month she sent me a message on AIM ( what a cowardly way to do it too and sounds dated now ). I was like OK whatever you have been weird and exhausting. At that time I had also been friends with her "best friend" and she sent me a message about her breaking up with me and I asked why she was so distant and difficult to hold a conversation with. She told me, my "girlfriend" had been talking to a guy she met on her church group vacation. They had been talking extensively on the phone, emailing and writing letters to each other. He had lived out of state or a couple states away. One weekend she told me she was going to be at work all weekend and I had planned to help a friend move across our state we lived in. While I was helping out a friend move his stuff, she had driven however many hours to meet this guy at a motel and did whatever and came back the next day. After about a week she broke up with me and I found out through her friend and I confronted her about it.
I slipped into depressive episodes and couldn't sleep because I would dream about her and think about her while laying in bed. It absolutely tore me up inside and I just couldn't figure out how this person would do this to me. I stopped eating for a while and lost a lot of wait. I tried to communicate with her but she was not interested at all for a month.
We ended up hanging out again and eventually started dating again. It was never the same and I was not able to trust most of what she said about what, where and who she was hanging out with or be with. I slip in and out of depressive episodes because I just could not believe potentially this person I had loved did this to me and I wanted her back in my life.
After another six months we broke up because of this again but she had been caught a couple times privately hanging out with other guys saying she didn't want to tell me because she didn't want to upset me. Which is completely stupid thing to say to somebody. She might as well have said I am seeing other guys behind your back.
During that period was the start of my depressive state and every once in a while I slip back from triggers. Where I would just shutdown and close myself off. Just a complete f*ck it, I give up attitude.
Ever since then, I don't know why, but I view Bible thumper's as being liars and cheaters and people who need to confess their wrong doing to an imaginary friend to justify their actions rather than having moral or ethical values.
Then a couple years down the road she came back into my life out of no where and we hung out being friends then she started saying we were in a relationship and we dated again for a year. We were having a long distance relationship and she kind of showed the same kind of habits but swore she had changed and was pursuing an education in social work ( pretty ironic ). We lived with each other for a while then she got a job in her career field and eventually started doing the same stuff will pursuing another guy at her new job. She called me and told me out of the blue she wanted to end it and to never call her again. I was like WTF everything was fine. We broke up and shortly after ( a week or so she had pictures of her with another guy on FB. They are now married and I have given up on relationships. I had one serious relationship since then but it was not working out.
It blows my mind sometimes that I let it eat me up because of this one person has no values in life other than being 100 percent selfish. I am just an idiot when it comes to relationships I guess.