My parents were absent to the point of neglect. Think The Glass Castle in terms of family dynamic. Once I took a greyhound bus 16 hours to visit a boyfriend at age 15. I also drove 900 miles to visit a boyfriend for a week (age 16). I went to raves but didn’t do drugs. I also crazily got a job behind their back because they didn’t feel like I should work in high school but I was bored. When I was younger I made a Tom Sawyer style raft for the pond we had. Honestly when you have zero safety net you’re a lot more responsible with yourself. I never did drugs harder than mushrooms and I’m a very type A person now. I love having structure in my life now, it feels a lot less stressful.