Yeah, the woman I fell in love with did this to me last year. In four weeks it will have been one solid year since I've heard anything from her. I could understand if she didn't feel like it was working out between us, even as friends. We could've at least talked it out and made that decision to break it off afterward. But to just up and leave with no warning like I did her some kind of injustice, when all I ever did was spend money I sometimes didn't have, devote time I clearly could've spent on myself or others, and just, generally speaking, go well past the limit beyond my normal means? It goes without saying, it hasn't been sitting right with me. And after six years, looking back at it all, there's nothing but sadness and anger at the situation.

Speaking of which, even though I do have some good things going for me, it really doesn't feel like much of a life at all without her around to have something to work towards, or even talk about things with. At least I had that to turn to after every day. But now there is no resolve in the things that have come and gone, nor any lasting catharsis in what remains. Where I'm at now is an albatross. A walking purgatory with the occasional happy moment every so often that serves to distract me. I want to move on, and I want to leave all this behind me, especially since it was so goddamn easy for her. And don't get me wrong, I'm trying every single day as I am, ultimately, a man who finishes things. When you feel like you've already had the best though, and the best is now gone... where do you go from there? Where's the ultimate happy ending in that regard? That's what I'm left wondering.