My life isn't that bad but I'm depressed and disappointed all the same.

Two weeks unemployed. I receive a job offer, but turned it down. I felt weird about taking a job where they asked if I was married or had kids.

I am struggling to let go of a toxic, volatile romantic relationship. We argue constantly. He frequently makes snide remarks, such as "Your job must keep you around for some reason. You're not friendly." When I needed work for school credit, he refused to help, saying, "The bosses at your old job said you were unhireable." He also gave a bad reference to a recruiter and denied doing it. When we argue, he says I live in the past and he should be forgiven for his mistakes.

Friends have said to ditch him because he doesn't want to be a better man for me and he low key puts me down.

It's become like a bad addiction. It's exacerbated by a bout of unemployment and lack of other romantic prospects.

I need a reason to get out of bed this morning and get my shit together. I've been feeling lost and empty.