I knew putting off studying for this huge exam was going to get to me, and I'm out of school so I lost what little ability I had to concentrate.

I had literal months to prepare for this because of Covid and I picked up my notes/book and read them for 10 minutes and put them down on like 400 occasions.

I have to prepare an impossibly large amount for a fairly hard exam that I know little about and the one fucking time I feel awake and alive it's because I'm so stressed that I couldn't hide it from my entire family. I've never in my life has anxiety stay this consistent for multiple days. I don't even know if I can call it anxiety anymore if it's been 3 days of wide eyed stress and 0 tiredness.

Man fuck this could have all been prevented.