I feel the same... it’s frustrating. Especially the not having any hobbies but it’s like anything I could try just makes me feel tired. I usually just end up binging The Office over and over again. I hope you’re able to get some help soon, keep trying. I have the option but every time I go to a therapist I just end up frustrated and meds give me horrible side effects. I know I just have to keep trying and maybe a therapist and a med will stick... but I’m just tired. Frustrating cycle. Hang in there... I’m doing my best for my mom. Her sister’s son shot himself last year and they are very close so it was a devastating first hand look at what my loss would do to her.