I have been struggling with particular porn stars and very certain hentai characters since I started fighting this addiction about a month ago. I usually seem to get obsessed about one to three porn stars/hentai comics at a time until about 7 days when the urge to see them again is so strong that I feel like I'm going crazy. The worst is when I start dreaming about watching porn of them, and in my dreams, I can see every tiny detail as if I were looking at porn under a magnifying glass. It makes the subsequent days impossible to get through, and I always end up relapsing.

In the past few weeks, I have sort of "gotten over" a few of my favorite porn stars by binging like crazy to them when I relapsed. I still fantasize about them, but the pull isn't as strong, at least not at this very moment. In three weeks, I haven't felt particularly compelled to look at pictures of the very first porn star who fueled my first relapse, although I still fantasize about her.

I certainly wouldn't recommend that approach because it advocates binging and relapsing, which is the exact opposite of the goals for which we should be striving. I also can't say with confidence yet that my obsession with these porn stars has faded - maybe the uncontrollable desire to see them again will return soon enough. All I can say is that when all is said and done, the consequences aren't worth the short term reward. When I relapse to a porn star who has been stuck on my mind all week, then seeing them again is even better than I could possibly imagine, but the ensuing withdrawal effects quickly ruin that enjoyment. Feeling too tired to even get up from my chair for the next 5 days is not worth 15 minutes of pleasuring myself to pictures of a woman whom I will never get to meet.