Pinna, if you will not read what I have to say then I won't let it stay silent. This was intended for YOUR eyes only but you actually instantly blocked me before you even read what I sent you. DISCORD NEVER SENT ME YOUR WARNING. YOU CUT ME OFF BEFORE I EVEN GOT A PROPER CHANCE AND NEITHER OF US EVEN REALIZED IT.

It forced me to reflect and see just what the heck this stuff you were talking about in the Zatch Bell fandoms even was and THIS is what I have to say about all of that now that I've seen it with my own eyes...... I poured everything into this, mind, body, and soul, and if it's going to fall on deaf ears then I won't let it be tossed aside, never to be seen by anyone.

I understand why you're in instant-block mode, but SOMEONE needs to explain to you a truth that you seem so closed off to and unwilling to hear.... that MISTAKES, MISUNDERSTANDINGS, AND MESSAGES FAILING TO SEND DO ACTUALLY HAPPEN.

Ok.... I'll be honest, before I thought I made a big mistake in your DMs because my opinion got me banned...... but this isn't even a question anymore..... Pedophilia is fucking gut-wrenching........ I finally, FINALLY see why you did what you did.... and I had no idea what I was even trying to defend........ I fucking mean it, and I take back everything I ever said about fantasies being okay. I didn't know what the fuck those fantasies were that I was defending until now........

I told you that I was completely unfamiliar with anyone doing that kind of stuff in the Zatch Bell community. All I knew was that my friend did "something" in his mind but I never knew what. I thought hard about it and decided that you must have had a good reason for feeling so strongly about pedophiles being the worst of the worst, even just for thinking it, worse than even murderers.

So I braced myself and looked it up for the first time..... and it took everything I had to suppress the urge to vomit........ That was NOT what I was getting myself into.... I had no idea...... I never would've imagined that ANYONE would be so sick as to subject children to.... those unbelievable, horrible, manipulative things....

You must have seen it all before..... you knew what "doujinshis" were and I didn't. I didn't know ANY of that stuff because I came from a very different side of the fandom.... I always thought that everyone deserved a fair defense but...... well, I was proven wrong today.... I...... CAN'T include myself in any part of the fandom that has filth-ridden people like that.... I'd sooner just unplug from the internet for good when it comes to Zatch Bell and try to enjoy the franchise in solitude.........

Believe me or don't but this is the truth. I'd love more than anything to be allowed back into your server, but I see why that just might not be possible..... I made too huge an error in judgment..... I was naive as all hell that there were such disgusting people in the world...... That is not me, Pinna. That will never BE me. I'm a full-blown Christian and I know evil when I see it. I'm so sorry that it took me until now and all of this mess to realize it..... I was always too quick to jump to the aid of anyone who I felt was under attack but my god..... All I can say is you were right.... You were fucking right...... that not everything deserves to be defended......

If you can't let me in, I get it....  I actually truly do..... but please don't judge me personally for what just might have been the biggest mistake of my life...... Please forgive me for being such a grade-A idiot.....

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And now I just found out that you even sent me THIS? Discord delayed the sending of this message, it never appeared until tonight. If I had seen this.... I would've just stopped. It's like I was destined to be kicked out of Zatch Bell because apparently everything in god's plan was working against me.

Pinna this message never appeared..... It's no wonder you wouldn't forgive me if you thought I ignored THIS. How full of myself do you think I am???? I will say it again.....

I. HAVE. NEVER. SEEN. THIS. MESSAGE. UNTIL. TONIGHT.

IT. DID. NOT. APPEAR. UNTIL. TONIGHT.

"You're defending pedophilic behavior. You're drawing analogies with other crimes as a basis of what's fair and what isn't fair to punish someone for. Whether you're aware of it or not, this is you defending pedophilia. You say you don't want any of that here in this server, but then go right around and tell me that we shouldn't be too hard on people who do exhibit that behavior. That is what you're doing. I'm trying really hard to give you the benefit of the doubt and give you the room to listen to what I'm saying and learn from this. Please. Rather than trying to debate with me. Please just listen to what I've said, and think about it.
If you can't do that, then, I'm sorry. As I've stated this is a bannable offense.
I'm trying to give you the opportunity to listen and learn what I'm trying to tell you. Please take it."