Ok this will be unpopular (as disturbing that being the case may be) but think about the rationality of this phenomenon.

Think about the mathematics, probability and logic behind being mortified that an impending freak happenstance that will harm you will occur. Place that against the backdrop of the numbers of people who do it everyday with no issue.

So facing an absolute paralysis over a possibility that is most likely fractions of what the risk of being harmed by being struck by lightning, having an acorn fall on your head in just the right spot, or one of the thousands of cars you pas everyday. See by this logic everything you do should induce panic.

For the life of me, I do not understand the intellectual purporting of a complete falsity and moreover the social acceptance of such.

I apologize for deviating the topic a bit and I want to implore that I am not making light of any emotional duress this has caused you but I am genuinely bewildered by this phenomenon.