Least year I was called selfish and immature because after being laid off from a company I worked at for 5 years, I took the only job that would hire me after 3 months of searching, a call center job. My mother said it was my fault for "holding out for a higher wage", even though it paid less than half what I was making-- barely above minimum, not even enough to keep my apartment. (For which I split rent with my bf)

It was hands down the worst period in my life. Every day I drove to the office I'd disassociate. I wished I was dead every day, and was sent to a psych hospital against my will.

But I was selfish for wanting to just live without wishing I was dead. For wanting a job that didn't take up my entire life. For wanting to have a life that didn't revolve around spending so much time scraping pennies together that I didn't have time to actually enjoy it.

I was called selfish for not wanting to have a pointless existence sacrificing my body and mind to make someone else rich.

I hope those days are over soon.