Ah, this is it. This is the episode that sparked some huge changes in my life.

When I first watched it, I was drunk and crying. When that scene happened, I yelled "Just fucking jump, fuck this shit. Fuck these people!"

I was laughing all throughout the rest of the episode and when it was over I wondered why I'd become so emotionally invested in Sato becoming happy.

It's because I felt the same way he did, that it was a dead end of misery. And his resolve at the end is cut short by someone else's shining moment.

I realized I hated my job, and that I hated my life. That everything I did was to offset the misery I felt just from going to work.

The way Sato felt trapped in his home I felt at work. My work misery didn't stop there, I took it home too.

The week after I finished watching this show, I started wrapping up all my work projects - not just completing them but getting them in shape to hand off. And then I quit.

I had no other job prospects and not a lot of stashed money or a safety net, but I was finally free of the same everyday misery. It's been 6 years and I don't regret it at all. And it all comes back to the time I thought Sato/Myself was just better off dead than continue to live life fucked like this.